THE WORLD OF TRANQUIL LIGHT-Fragments from the life of an ordinary girl!

From almost a month or two, As I was devouring the scrumptious meal  I appear to be in tune with my emotions. I didn't know if it was a truth or an illusion. Technically, I am in touch with my emotions, I know what's going on, I am okay through it all so yes that makes sense. But at the same time, I do not really know how to go about all of them.  I literally imagine myself standing in the middle and all around me everything is either going up in explosions or already has. And there I am standing there in the middle watching it all fall apart and fall to the ground as I try to make sense of it. I feel helpless and strangely powerful. I really do not know... I just do not know whatever is going down, I am unable to truly comprehend the pieces that are falling apart or even the ones that were whole to start with. But the fact that I am still standing in the middle and not completely exploding and falling apart with everything makes me feel powerful - I feel strong. T...

Currently, I am in a state of mess where my foundational state is "okay" with sprinkles of laughter, happiness, sadness, tears and whatever else. With all the emotions mingled up together, each finding its own solace. I wonder how, interesting human condition is, in its capacity to feel and cause pain; it is very interesting and complex. The pain we cause others, the pain we cause to ourselves, the pain we feel for others, the pain we feel for ourselves and the pain we do not feel at all. Our human condition of pain is interesting. We are aware that a life without pain is not possible, yet it's hard to accept or understand pain when it comes around. We do not want pain, who wants pain (in theory at least)? But what do you do when pain is liberating? What do you when pain is what it takes to allow yourself to propel into higher life conditions, to create a stronger existence for yourself or someone else, or to liberate yourself from what you're feeling - pain or...