A SOLACE WITHIN PAIN

Currently, I am in a state of mess where my foundational state is "okay" with sprinkles of laughter, happiness, sadness, tears and whatever else. With all the emotions mingled up together, each finding its own solace.

I wonder how, interesting human condition is, in its capacity to feel and cause pain; it is very interesting and complex. The pain we cause others, the pain we cause to ourselves, the pain we feel for others, the pain we feel for ourselves and the pain we do not feel at all. Our human condition of pain is interesting. We are aware that a life without pain is not possible, yet it's hard to accept or understand pain when it comes around. We do not want pain, who wants pain (in theory at least)? But what do you do when pain is liberating? What do you when pain is what it takes to allow yourself to propel into higher life conditions, to create a stronger existence for yourself or someone else, or to liberate yourself from what you're feeling - pain or nothing at all.

Love is romanticized. Love, everyone has thought and talked about it at least once... created a poetic picture like Romeo and Juliet that attracts our minds because love is hard to fully/completely encapsulate in words. Yet we try... and it is beautiful.
However, what about pain? Pain is beautiful, hurtful, colourful, vivid and complex. There are songs, poems, movies and devdas trying to make sense of this state of the human condition.

But still, what is pain? Is it inherently good/bad? Can its essence truly be captured through words or painting, or is it like love..Fleeting.. Giving us the feeling, the satisfaction that we have captured it or defined it but we know we haven't.

Pain is beautiful and complex. In the daily grind, I believe, sometimes it's easily underrated or overrated but never really appreciated. After all, it does create a setback from what we could be doing instead of wallowing in our own respective darkness. However; at the same time it brings out and shows us how little credit we give ourselves and our emotional and mental states of being. We are human. We are beings with colourful emotions caused by the crazy cosmic neuro-activity in our brains. It's easy to de-humanize those feelings by labelling them as some "chemical locha" in our brains and therefore, easy to underrate our feelings. But each time we do this, each time we shrug those feelings off we are depriving ourselves of the chance, our human selves, to enjoy and embrace the emotional state caused by our conditions. We aren't giving ourselves the chance to feel pain. Ever had the satisfaction of allowing yourself to cry your heart out, sans restrictions? Then, you know the feeling of being light that follows. Then, you know that once you allow yourselves to embrace the pain fully, you are able to let go of it. You let the pain do its magic - bring you down and bring you back up with a new life, a new vigour. It is beautiful because it allows you to feel that lightness, it gives you the chance to garner strength from the blow and at its end it gives you perspective and space for reflection - what works for you and what doesn't. Nietzsche said, as did Kelly Clarkson years years years later: what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Pain does that.

However, it is complex because it introduces to your own darkness. It's complex and hurtful because it feels like it is killing you. Where do you get the strength from then? How do you appreciate it then? It is hard. It is, anyone who says it isn't is lying and should, for the goodwill of all and themselves, stop saying that. But, all of that comes - the strength, the resilience, the willpower to rise up again, it does..if you keep holding on. By introducing you to your darkness it also introduces you to your strength, your will, your beauty and your power. That's why I say pain is hard, complex and beautiful. It teaches you. It gives you a chance to feel. But most of all, pain gives you a chance to come back up with greater strength and reflection.

Give yourself a chance. Do not belittle your emotional state of being - give yourself the chance to experience and propel yourself to greater elevations.
I know you can.


*Personal interpretation