A wish!

You, Why do you suffer so?

Why do you weep so much?

Why do you worry thus?

Suffer as you must,

for the young  shoots to break through the

fragrant earth and shoot up straight,

Weep as you will,

for you cannot help weeping, until the day

that you behold the sun beyond the rainy season.

Worry as you must,

for until the darkness of midnight passes,

you cannot behold the solemn breaking of the dawn.

- Daisaku Ikeda

I wonder, How amazingly poet paints the reality of life into truth through less words. How vivid and eloquent are the depths of  these people and many people from old age and at the same time some having obscure and murky ideologies! There is so much to feel about: others pains, anxieties, sorrows, struggles; there is so much to accomplish, to win over, to embrace, to love, to live, to experience... 

In last three years of my life, I have learnt and see the most painful and the most beautiful lessons of my life, which if viewed from the lay persons eye is full of complaints, grudges and fears and people around me are always like ahhh if went near this person our life too will be depressed, full of complaints, sadness and what not. That was the aura I was carrying, lost and entangled in my own vicious circle of self pity made me so hopeless and directionless. All my enthusiasm for life was seems to be draining out of my hand within a blink of an eye. 

So,was left with two options either to keep continuing this daily cribbing monotonous life as it is and keep going along the flow or to master myself in this great drama of life and face every obstacle head on and create a new history by resetting every area of my life. I opted second one.

Very challenging, but honestly I am loving my life like anything. I am working with an international NGO from last nine and a half years and after a break of three long years actually felt that true joy and happiness one gets from by working and each day struggling so hard just to make others life full of smiles and hopes, nothing can give that satisfaction that one gets from doing this. Each day waking up with the entirely new sets of problems yet being soo soo happy and peaceful. This kind of aura, this kind of struggles, this kind of satisfaction I wish to carry eternally.

My heart leaps when young people at soo early ages attempts to end their lives because of xyz reasons, my heart cries for people who are unaware how precious they are! Why self-awakening is such a difficult task?

I wish to reach out to those lives who are so much self-consumed in their own lesser self that they have actually forgot for what they are here, to those lives whose desire for self-improvement has almost vanished, to those lives who want to do so much but because of some reasons unable to accomplish it. My wish is to have land of tranquil light where people will enjoy peace. We cannot avoid sufferings, but we can definitely learn how to emerge victorious even being amidst all the challenges.